Grief and Grieving- a Cloudy Reflection:
Grief is not just normal, it's necessary.
Grief is both intensely personal and vastly cosmic in nature.
The first months after my Zina passing into heaven were a wordless agony of tears and the anguish of private howls.
(At around that time, families and friends was getting married,babies were being born. Friends were fashioned into life- partners.)
Renewed beauty in one's life-journey is exchanged for ugliness of death glacially.
Comfort was haltingly exchanged for loss.
Time passes while empathy declines recognition, but warmth of true love escalated healing. Affection via touch and hugs is magnificent especially when one least expects it. An understanding smile reaps rewards for each occasion. A bright smile lights dark hurts away. Consistency is worth heaps.
While time partially heals, love continues the process more effectively.
Strength of mind avails a little but stalls the process of healing- unfortunately.
Almost everything changes, eventually everything is questioned.
What satisfied both easily becomes obsolete. While the months reel by, life for oneself picks a new pace. Oneself gets a new outlook on things which were previously set in stone. What had been troublesome becomes as easy as smearing butter on a piece of toast. Vice Versa.
Regrets surface all the time, but healing happens with setting one's mind on things above, not on the things of this errant world. Revenge seems natural but destroys the soul. ( the only harm happens is to oneself ) One discovers all manner of truth but they seem false under the light of love's conviction.
Lies and selfishness burn holes in one's trust of others.
One lies on one's bed and consistently searches one's own heart and shines the light of one's beliefs onto other's actions and beliefs.
Fortunately the truth reveals and prevails over deceptive practices.
If one is a follower of Christ, love finds a way through the inevitable strata of confused emotions after many shocking discoveries.
But an ultimate truth is that all have sinned including oneself, leaves revengeful thoughts in the dust. Rebuke and admonish others with truth, compassion and wisdom.
By Digital Anvil.
The cosmic part:
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